Throughout the years, God has revealed Himself to me in many ways - in my life I have turned from Him when I knew I should have been relying on Him. .and each time He has stood there waiting for my return with open arms. I am so grateful that God's love is unconditional and His mercy is never ending! Most of all, I have seen God work through other people and through His word. In May of last year I fell into an episode of clinical depression that lasted nearly an entire year..throughout the year God showed me His faithfulness through the friends he had placed in my life - my close friends and family showed me God's love by their actions, even when they didn't even realize how powerful the love of Christ through them was. In my darkest moments, the I hope I had through Christ in me would spring up as if from nowhere... passages of Scripture that were placed at just the right time were brought to my attention by the people in my life, talking to God and thru my own searching through the scriptures. I learned all about the ins and outs of hoping in Him, even when I wanted to abandon all hope. Even writing this now brings flashes of moments that I had not even recognized were there - moments when I didn't think I could feel God holding onto me and my hope seemed to wane - He was there.
He always is.
Lamentations 3:22-24 (English Standard Version)
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. 'The Lord is my portion," says my soul, "therefore, I will hope in him."
Lamentations 3:22-24 (The Message
God's loyal love couldn't have run out, his merciful love couldn't have dried up. They're created new every morning. How great is your faithfulness! I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over). He's all I've got left.
Lamentations 3:22-24 (Amplified Bible)
It is because of the Lord's mrecy and loving kindness that we are not consumed, because His [tender] compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great and abundant is Your stability and faithfulness. The Lord is my portion or share, says my living being (my inner self); therefore will I hope in Him and wait expectantly for Him.
I am not one to openly pour out my heart to people I do not know, but because I recognize the power of the written word, I am writing this.. Most of my blog postings are from journal entries that I wrote during my long battle with clinical depression. Through my journey of reading through these thoughts, I have come to gain a fuller knowledge of the depths of depression, the power of love, the power of God and the hope of healing.
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